The B-Word

Man...Karma is a Biotch.

So this weekend people...I lost 1 person I consider a friend & about 5 associates that would go out of their way to say "hi" to me in a crowded bar. I cant help but be a tad disappointed at the way things turned out. Ive told the story about this so many times that I cant even say it anymore.

Lets just say that it involved a simple assault & lying ass bar owners. Ive just decided that there is nothing in the "streets" for me. I hate to just go jumping to "I'm not going out anymore" BUT its waaay too much shadiness happening in the streets of Nashville. I need to stay at home for awhile. Let me just say that.

I'm 25. I feel 25. I make 25 year old decisions. I have 25 year + friends. I have to act as such. It's expected.

Ive sort of took a personal hiatus from men. I just don't feel like it right now. There is no level of maturity. I think I have the right mind state but I just don't think these year 2008 men are ready for me. I don't even want to hear any back lash from any men about this either In my opinion it would be a bunch of open ended shit talk anyway.

I'm going to be dealing with my dual side on that note. I'm Bi. Not sure how many of you readers know that, but I am. So, no men for the time being. Lets hop to the other side for a second.

So, Kase & I started our little challenge yesterday. I worked out for the first time in ages. I started sloooooow. I worked out for 30 min yesterday night. It felt good. It put me to SLEEP. I have been having some insomnia problems. Mainly, caused by my brain moving at rapid paces when my eyes are closed. Its hard for me to just settle sometimes.

Time on my hands. A lot of time on my hands.

Just wanted to update a little. I'm going to get back to work. I also have to be at #2 today. I do want to say that I am alive more than ever. I am more alert & I am taking peoples commitments to me very seriously. I'm just not dealing with CRAP! Not from men & not from women in my life either.

I am loyal & honest. I expect the same.